nervous

a lot of things have been making me anxious lately.

after much deliberation, i decided to accept a lateral promotion in my company. it's going to be more work, at least for a while, and more stress. but also it will be something a little different, and a number of new challenges. it has been stressing me out. i'm starting to be less nervous about my decision lately, but every so often, i worry that i should have just stayed in the position i have.

i am taking level 1 at the magnet. i won a free class at the opening party in march, and finally have worked up the courage and desire to take the class. i had my first class this past wednesday, and almost cancelled at the last minute, i was so nervous. i hate being in front of a group and being in a situation where i feel i am being judged. my classmates all seem very nice, and i don't feel like they are judging me, but i still feel a bit nauseous every time i get up on stage. armando taught the first class (but ed will be teaching us for most of the classes) and he was incredibly supportive. i did really enjoy learning more about improv, and i had fun in some of my scenework. but now i have a whole week ahead of me for my anxiety to build before i go to the next class.

i am worried that the red sox aren't going to make the play-offs. that's all i'm wishing for them right now. one step at a time. but it's down to the wire and we need some pitchers! the guys are letting me down. i need to call them on my red sox phone and give them a pep talk, i guess. but i'm getting nervous for them. they need a win tomorrow.

when i write it down, it's clear that if these are my troubles, then i'm doing pretty well. but still. i'm feeling anxious these days.